Its that time again when you start wondering about stuff and need to write them down in some fashion.

 

 One good thing that has happened recently is that I have finally finished the D&D Creations website so that people can order stuff from the site directly, I am glad to finally have tins done.

 

Like many pagans I have a feeling as to what my purpose this time around is. I have had this feeling for quite some time now. To some of my pagan friends I refer to my self as the pagan Dr. Phil since I am a big white guy like he is.. lol.. anyway..

 

About a year ago I met a young pagan couple and we all became friends, around the same time I reconnected with a friend that I didnt know was pagan. Anyway I told the young couple and and another person that is pagan and hung round us all that I was there to help them in some way. Well the first one I extended the offer to never took me up on it, I found out later he thought I was not being serious when I made the offer. So I was never able to help him with what he was needing help with at the time. He may never get it but oh well it is his problem now.

Recently the young couple told me of troubles that they were having with their landlord, seems they were going to be kicked out of the place they were staying. Without any hesitation I told them that they could move into my place and that we would all help each other out. They could help me with bills and we could help each other start trying to save money. As we all talked other ways I could help became apparent.

Not long after they moved in, well we are still trying to get stuff rearranged and situated but its all going good. Anyway they found out that CPS had been called on them, long weird story behind this. nothing bad just weird and kinda convaluted, when they called to find out why they were told by the guy that he went to their place ready to take their kids from them, but when he saw that they were no longer where they were he changed his mind after paying a visit to where we are staying. I knew right then and there that I had made the right decision in extending the offer to move in.  

For the first time in I am not sure when I knew that I had done what I was meant to do. Now I just need to make things happen for me, or meet my pagan Dr Phil or whoever to help me achieve what I want most out of life. I dont look for ways to make a fast buck or become rich over-night granted that would be nice but its not what I want most. What I really want most out of life is to finally know true love and happiness with a lady that will take me for me and not try to change me to suit what she wants. Thats not so much to want is it??????????????  

 

Well today started okay, been workin on a website and havin some troubles with what I want to do on it. and then I go and trip as I head into hte house and fall on my wrist which still hurst like crazy. lucky for me some friends are here tonite and one of them wrapped an ace bandage round the wrist for me so it should hopefully be getting better come tomorrow, or well later today that is. 

Seems that every so often I hear something about how bad a guy treats a his lady and well it pisses me off hearing stuff like that. It really makes it hard for us nice guys to find someone special for ourselves, of course I know thats a two way street. Having been done wrong a few times myself I know it aint always the guys or the ladies that cause the problems.

 

 I know a guy that doesnt realize how lucky he is to have the lady he does. maybe he will one day but sometimes I seriously doubt he will ever know.

 

is it really too much to ask to be happy? to find that special lady that will help make your world complete and compliment you as you compliment her as well.someone that will take you for you faults and all and love you for you and grow with you without demanding that you change who you are. growing and evolving together is one thing but to demand that the other change completely to make you happy, now thats where stuff goes weird on occasion. friendships lost and relationships busted when the other bucks the changes that are demanded.

 

Its a two way path isnt it? if not it should be wide enough for both to walk down it side by side helping each other as needed, someone that you can lean on and be there for when the time has come. 

 

 well I guess thats it for now ... blessed be yall.. may the gods and goddess watch over you and keep ya safe. 

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MERRY MEET Y'all 

 

Well it is 3am and why am I not sleepin soundly, I really wish I knew the answer to that one. I was tired when I sat down to check email and what have ya but now I Sit here awake, makes me wanna growl at something. lol. oh well.... Still waiting for some good stuff to start commin my way this year. It is werid how something will begin to happen that looks good and the you see that its not good.

 After the way last year was for me I made a comment in jest that if I wasnt the kind of person I was I would have done some nasty spell work to seek a bit of payback for some of the wrong crap I have been dealing with since april last year. But as with other stuff thats just not my style, then again there is also the karmic payback that I dont wanna deal with.

 I want to reconnect to the magic I once knew but for some reason and not sure how I wanna do this. Should I do a basic rededication ritual or something else? any ideas? 

 

Blessed BE 

Now this is nice a pagan specific thing kinda like myspace. I like it, still pokin around looking and seein what I can do with this. Who knows what may happen here. Myspace has grown kinda dull and well there could be some better happenins here. More pagans to interact with for the main thing.